Awaiting a blessing..

Heather Marye

I am 40 weeks and 4 days pregnant with our 4th baby. I never had such dreams for my life as the Lord had for me. He has blessed me beyond anything I could even imagine I would never have thought of being a mommy to such wonderful kids and even have the opportunity to stay home with them. They don't have the best mom but I sure do love them and in-spite of me they are some of the most wonderful loving people I know. They have a great Daddy who I could have never dreamed up as well he is a man who loves the Lord and knows that the children the Lord has giving us for a time are indeed a gift. My husband, kids, family, church family, and friends are all such blessings. Our home and the way the Lord provides for us is always such a blessing as well.

The amazing part of this story comes to the surface as I wait for number 4 Anna Gabrielle Pancho. I was born at 36 or 37 weeks, I weighed 4 1/2 lbs. with hyaline membrane disease my Dad was told to prepare my Mom that I would not make it. Well HEB hospital in Fort Worth TX had just opened a wing for premature babies and had a nurse trained for premature babies and specializing in hyaline membrane. I was the first baby to try out the new physicality. So the Lord knew all the parts that went together,  all the way to me sitting here now loving all of you who read this and waiting for yet another gift from Him. I don't deserve the children or the life that He has given me. Not one day of it. As the Lord Himself has said in His Word I am but filthy rags and a sinner (for all have sinned) so not only does He give me life but He saved me from sin and has made me ALIVE in Christ. After spending much of my life believing in Christ but not following Him. He brought me to understanding that I needed to turn from my sin and make him the Lord of my life and follow Him. So the greatest gift the Lord has given me is not that He let me live that day August 23 1973 and not that He gave me a wonderful husband and not even that He is giving us yet another gift in baby Anna. But that He has giving me eternal life!! Life even when this one ends, life everlasting in glory with my Lord begins!! I pray that all of our wonderful children will be given this same gift and all of our friends and family will as well. The Gift of salvation through grace alone in Christ.

So "waiting" not such a bad thing... My cousin and his wife have babies who come early. The latest baby Matthew came at 33.5 weeks and weighed the same as I did. They didn't get to hold him for 24 hours I know that had to be hard on Shannon the mommy. and I think of my mom who didn't get to hold me for almost a month I believe it was. Matthew Jacob is doing great now and gets held a lot! he has two sisters and a brother just like Anna will. So I'm glad to wait, thankful to have full term babies and to even have babies at all. But what my eyes are on as I enjoy the good and the bad of this life knowing that God has a plan and is in control, is the eternal gift. Waiting for heaven with the Lord. What a glorious truth we wait for. I pray you wait with a glad heart and rest in His work in the here and now. Even in what seems so bad and horrible in the moment can be the Lord working miracles and pulling a beautiful plan together one full of gifts best of all the gift of salvation.
So I'm waiting.. :-)

Matthew Jacob